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Changing my relationship with social media – Take 2!

I’ve written a lot of posts recently about distancing myself from social media and having less screen time, which in this day and age, can feel somewhat impossible..

Recently, I read the best seller non-fiction book ‘Logging Off’ by Adele Zeynep Walton, and it’s an amazing eye-opener which has resulted in me making some more decisions about social media and my screen time.

What is the book about?

The book touches on a real life horrible experience Adele and her family went through where her sister became part of an online group that eventually resulted in her taking her own life. There are various factors in the book about things we already know, how the algorithms are controlled, how the Big Tech genuinely doesn’t care about human beings or their emotional wellbeing (that’s not new information though), there’s various conversations with families and people who have seen the dark side of social media. It touches on a lot of topics including how workplaces are now becoming more toxic due to technology, how different generations can be left out due to lack of tech knowledge.. it is a very insightful read. It’s also made me think hard about how social media makes me view myself and what I need to do different going forward.

Not everything good in my life is on a screen

A part of this book also touches on how we have got to a point where we start to feel less value in real life pleasures, because it’s not posted online for everyone to see. I have realised I am so guilty of this! I assume if my post doesn’t get enough likes or views that it’s obviously not good and I shouldn’t feel happy about it. It is such a silly narrative to have because if I’m sharing something I’m passionate or happy about, does that change my feelings if all my ‘friends’ online don’t see or like it? Of course not.

We need to stop allowing algorithms to dictate what we’re happy about

If a post isn’t getting a lot of likes, it’s mainly down to the fact that it’s either not getting viewed on peoples feeds, or it’s not showing up on the feed of people who would like it. I have to stop beating myself up whenever something I share isn’t getting the attention I hoped for.

More importantly, why am I craving that attention so much? From people I barely know? Does that make how happy I felt when I wrote a poem any less meaningful? Or my excitement over a blog post or a book any less important to me? No. But we’re now in a society where the new obsession is how we are perceived online. Consistently comparing ourselves to others in the same boat as us. If I keep allowing my mood to be affected by what goes on behind the screens, I will never experience true happiness.

Social media is a great tool, but I also need to stop giving it too much of my time.

I recently decided that Instagram is the only platform I enjoy using and I can be a lot stricter with my time on it. So, as someone who admittedly gets very sucked in by doomscrolling on various apps only to then beat herself up over the amount of tasks she hasn’t done, I’ve deleted my other social media profiles. TikTok and Facebook have been removed from my phone and my profiles should be permanently deleted in the next few weeks. Will I regret this in a few months time? I hope not.

I think the important thing I’ve learned from the book and my personal experiences is: there is always too much riding on the online platforms, and I get so overwhelmed and frustrated trying to keep up with it.

I need to spend more time in the real world, experience real feelings and experiences. I think the important thing is to focus not on what attention my posts get, but how I feel personally in all my day to day moments.

I appreciate that if I ever want my writing goals to be met and live my dream goals, I can’t do that without the online world, and it can be a good tool to have if I use it in the right way and in the right short timeframes. I’ve gone back to having screen time limits on my phone, I am still doing things like leaving my phone at home on purpose, and I’m scheduling a lot more on Insta now rather than trying to post multiple things in one go.

I still try and spend a bit of time online each day to keep my profile active, keep up with whats going on, and show love/appreciation where I can on peoples posts. But I am focusing on spending more time on my courses (yeah, I’m doing more than one course. I’m ambitious and mad, more on that later), getting lost in fictional works and writing in as much free moments as I can.

Hopefully we can all do with a little more ‘offline time’. Fingers crossed.

Small Changes I’ve Made To Reduce My Anxiety.

Little things that are helping my anxiety not be in control.

I have never been secretive about the fact that I suffer from Anxiety disorder. Nor am I oblivious to the fact that the older I get, and the more life experiences (and traumas) I face, the deeper and heavier the anxiety goes.

I found myself in a position where I was having major anxiety attacks more regularly. Over everything. It’s important to note that the ‘everything’ was also a series of nothing’s. And it got to a point where I had to stop myself and acknowledge that the damage I’m doing to my own health is becoming a problem. It was time I started to try out new things to start to eliminate the anxiety.

So, here are a few practices I’ve started doing which have actually started to produce much less anxiety outbursts (I just have to stick to them now).

The No Vaping Continues

If you read one of my recent posts, you’ll know I am currently in the early stages of eliminating nicotine from my life for good. I know addicts and fellow vapers hate the fact people keep saying it’s a real difference to your mental health when you stop but honestly, for me, it is. Am I still having moments where I pine for some flavoured air because I think it’ll soothe something? Sure. But every day that I don’t cave and go longer without I notice my mind become clearer and clearer. My asthmatic lungs are taking a while to heal, but I can’t magically solve everything at once can I?

I am focusing heavily on self-love.

I know there’ll probably be eye rolls at this. But it is true what they say, you become a magnet for all the energy you give out, if you don’t fall in love with yourself and be happy with who you are then how is anything going to be good enough for you? I am leaving this paragraph brief because I’m still ironing out some stuff and research on this which I will do a separate post in detail on. But what I will say is, self-love is always an ongoing journey. Whether you’re with someone or not. Read books that inspire you to love yourself, it will make a big difference to how you think about things.

Affirmations

Yeah, I know, I’m becoming that guy. I know there is a lot of judgement on manifesting and affirmations. But I have found that having those little talks with myself when I’m feeling a certain way and need to rewire myself to remember who the fuck I am. These have made a big difference. Especially if I start doing them when I feel a little shift in my emotion or like my anxiety is being triggered. It really helps bring you back in.

I am distancing myself from actively messaging

I think I may have touched on this before. But one thing that always made me heavily upset and anxious, was how I am always a person who messages quickly, replies and reassures heavily, but I have never had the same from other people. That’s okay, I’m not taking this opportunity to dig at others. But what I learned is, the only person who is feeling awkward about this is me. I am a people-pleaser. I shouldn’t be, but I am. I have recently decided to put myself first and have hours of screen time locks and on some days, I will remove notifications for a day. Sometimes, I’ll leave my phone at home or work for a day/night. I learned from doing all this that nothing disastrous happened. Breaking myself from the consistent need to be active on my phone has really worked wonders for my brain and made me a lot more relaxed in conversations.

(Obviously, I will still stress that communication is important and you should always express boundaries and meet people halfway if you can).

I’m doing things that are good for my mind and body

I’ve recently booked to have a massage. Which doesn’t sound like much, but I never have those. My body is tense AF and I made a decision that it is probably something my body really needs to have to feel better as a whole. It’s something I’m considering doing as a regular thing to take care of my body. I am also spending more time taking ‘mindful walks’. I don’t have headphones or any distractions, I just take a walk alone and acknowledge what’s present and around me. It does so many wonders for me and it also helps me think about events and situations more clearly when the algorithm isn’t manipulating me. Also, walking is good for your body too 😉

And lastly – I am slowly working on not caring about numbers of likes or attention. This is a work in progress, which I am sure I will blog about at some point .

There you have it. There’s a lil update on personal improvements I’m making. They might not work for everyone, but it’s definitely making a solid difference in my brain wiring. Anxiety doesn’t disappear, but it can be controlled.

An 8 Day Social Media Detox

A little reflection on my social media break

In July, I made a decision that due to extreme over-stimulation, I was going to spend my holiday completely off of all social media app’s, including Whatsapp.

It may sound like a bizarre decision to make but it was something I thought I really needed to focus on. The last few months have been a complete whirlwind for me, I’m still struggling with certain things but I’ve been extremely active regularly on my social media pages with my reading updates and writing (even though, I struggle a lot with the latter lately).

It was brought to my attention that I was overstimulated, working 40(+) hours a week and then trying to keep up to date with being relevant online plus organising your own living space, trying to find the time to write anything etc. my phone was stitched to my hand pretty much. And I was doing that annoying thing I think most of us do with our phones – the looking at an app, coming out of it, only to jump back in 2 seconds later (honestly, what do we think is new at that point?).

My detox was from the Friday evening, right through to the following Saturday evening. I put screen limits on my phone so that all my apps were not accessible while I was away. As I was going on a family holiday I had to leave texts/calls open but other than that I restricted everything.

The initial goal I had was: have time away from the apps, use it to clear my head, spend some free time writing and doing some self-development work.

One of the bizarre things I felt when I started this was guilt. As someone who struggles a lot with anxiety, I can be the first to understand how much silence from another person can trigger someone. However, I am a bit on the fence with some areas of this, I think as a human race, we have become very dependent on immediacy, especially from others. We need to learn to slow down (I know, I am not one to talk on this) and also appreciate that not everyone is available 24/7. No-one should be.

I did respect others in my decision though by sending messages to the people I am likely to hear from to advise them I would be off grid for just over a week. So nobody panics. So once that good deed was done, I shut it all off and went ahead with my plan.

Did it all go to plan? Almost.

I did manage to go the whole time without opening any of the app’s. It was hard at first, but I never caved. The things that didn’t go to plan was the other bits. Turns out, when you’re holidaying with family and having to share a room with a younger family member, your personal plans and requirements go out the window a little bit.

It was also a difficult process because I also decided to quit vaping cold turkey at the same time (a separate post on nicotine withdrawal to come later), and still coming to terms with my thyroid medication being a bit all over the place and the nonstop heat. So there were times I could have done with distracting myself on social media, but I still was determined and didn’t cave 🙂

(I would also like to randomly push in here that in case you weren’t aware… you can get sunburn on your feet. It’s not comfortable. Cream up).

But all my little obstacles and dilemmas aside, here are the positive things I have taken away from my detox:

A change of plan with some writing – Although I got zero writing done due to distractions, I did have a lot of time to think about why I was struggling a bit with my novel I’m trying to write. It occurred to me that there was an underlying issue with my general idea, so I am now taking it on from a whole new plot point, but I feel more confident about where this one is going now. It also gave me time to come up with some other novel draft ideas. (Yes, this does mean I am starting my novel again a little bit. But I am still going with the wing it plan and am hoping to get a massive chunk of it done by September).

I had fresher ideas and perspectives without social media influence – I cannot begin to tell you how much clearer my brain felt after being completely ignorant to social media for a while. There was no algorithm suggestions making me rethink things or influencing my ideas. I just had time to adjust to and think the way I wanted to.

I now know that although it’s a necessity these days, I don’t have to be on it all the time – Spoiler alert – the detox and not using apps for a week did not kill me. I didn’t miss anything life threatening or critical. The world carried on without me, and I caught up in my own time. I think this is an important factor for me to focus on, especially now that I’m back online and trying to regularly post again.

Yes, it’s good to stay in the know and updated on everyone and everything, but we let FOMO hit us way too much I think. After doing this detox, I am now trying to be a bit more disciplined with my usage… I have screen time locks at night now, I put it on dnd whenever I am out or about to work or do something that needs my attention, I turned my notifications off – so I only go into the apps when I want to.

I am hoping I can stick to these routines now (it would really help my writing motivation if I could) but I am not only proud of myself for managing that whole time without it, but I’m confident that I am another big step closer to not letting my anxiety overcome me when it comes to phones and communication, and maybe I will be able to achieve my 2026 goals after all?